Nostalgia

I had an assignment to write about any event that drove the most emotions in me.This is what I wrote........

The event which I remember to be the closest to my heart is the last day of school.

The day itself was one with mixed reactions.Sadness,for leaving an institution which had cradled me like its own child and joy,for being moulded to face the real world.

But today,every time I look back at that day,I feel an emptiness and loss.The institution that made me,nurtured me,is no longer a part of me.With heavy heart I walked out of the doorways which had been my second home.The love of every staff member,the embrace of every classroom,the smell of the mud of the playing field are vividly etched in my senses,and fills me with nostalgia.

The ten most brilliant years of my life,culminated into that day,which by far is the only event which drives out the most intense emotions in me.

Nervous Wreck......

I never believed it.It always seemed like an exaggerated expression.
"Dude.....I got so nervous......I messed up my exam bad".Well,how could I know,I never had experienced it.Never in school,nor college......and engineering....these exams are more like "who cares".

I believed,it was just an excuse to hide behind mark sheets showing a poor grade."How can you get nervous in an exam?.....you've been giving it since the 1st grade",that's what I thought about,every time I heard someone "exaggerating".But life seems to have its own way.

The weakness of my mind,got to my scores on an exam today.Just as for every exam,I left home with a cool mind,never fearing or dreading it.The travel to the examination centre was long.Not carrying any music along the way,I allowed my thoughts to meander.Suddenly,I was filled with the weirdest of thoughts."What if I messed up the exam?"."What if I couldn't prove my preparation?".Things were getting out of hand.Even the slighest signs of confidence were waning.When I look back,the ride to the centre scares me to death.

I couldn't understand the reason for my pessimism.It wasn't that I lacked preparation.I was prepared to the best of my ability.Maybe the hype and importance of the exam got to me(My postgraduate studies depend on it).

This state of mind never got better,in fact,it deteriorated with every passing minute of the examination.I was sweating profusely.My fingers got jammed.I kept shaking my legs.I just wanted to get over with it,and RUN out of the centre.

Each and every question seemed tougher than it was.Every answer of mine seemed wrong.Nothing was going right for me.And,expectedly my scores reflected my anxiety.I didn't do as well as I thought my potential was.Wasn't a great day for me.

But besides this I realized the importance of being confident in your approach to an exam.Anxiety probably caused me to get those questions wrong,which under normal circumstances I would have scored correctly.A first experience,this.